- As for your vanilla friends not reacting, I bet most are somewhat blindsided and stunned with the information first time they hear it, and don't want to "be that guy" who over reacts, so likely they just "smile and nod" and need a few moments (or days??!?) to gather their thoughts on it so... So sure it starts from a rather generic sexist view, but I don't think it's misogynistic and likely not meant to be even confrontational, even though that's how you received it over the years...

- To me, that indicates they more TOLERATE the kink than have a genuine attraction to it. (likely because they know how to make a quick dollar from it) do to most of the community, seeing you is like seeing a mermaid and they are convinced there must be a more common explanation for it all.... And also sadly, meant in the community DO talk openly about past unfortunate events that led to them finding comfort in diapers...

- Basically, you are a fucking unicorn!!! While they do exist for sure, the very small percentage of young, attractive cis women that truly enjoy this kink are elusive and almost mythical... The disbelief you get from the DL community is because they likely have experienced same as me... 98% of women, attractive or not, that list diapers as an interest, will only allow one or two conversations before requiring all males to $tribute$ before allowing any more interaction...

- You are amazing diaperperv! I'm constantly in awe every time you release content and appreciate all these glimpses into the workings of your mind! Forget that 420 dude!!!

I will say it's both saddening you've felt that "abrasion" for almost 30 years, but I think the reactions are much more simplistic than you've worked them up to be... You have truly experienced all that angst, but...